Publisher: Grand Central Publishing Pages: 320
Format: eARC
Goodreads: Hayden Panettiere’s career in entertainment began before she could talk. From her first gig as a Michelin baby to roles in cult classics like Remember the Titans and Raising Helen, as well as popular soap operas Guiding Light and One Life to Live, Hayden built an impressive resume by the time she entered middle school. Throughout the early 2000s, she starred in millennial favorites like Racing Stripes, Heroes, and Scream 4 & VI and earned two Golden Globe nominations for her starring role of Juliette Barnes in Nashville. The squeaky-clean face of Neutrogena, she was Hollywood’s girl next door and subjected to all the fame, attention, and expectations that came with it. In an era of relentless paparazzi with an appetite for celebrity breakdowns, naysayers were certain this young starlet would crash and burn. Not one to disappoint, she did.
In this irreverent, intimate, and inspiring memoir, Hayden holds nothing back. What started as a fun job for a child took a decidedly darker turn as she came of age. She exposes the pressure and exploitation young stars face before they’re old enough to know themselves, and how easy it is for them to lose control of their own narrative and, ultimately, their lives. Hayden was the target of brutal tabloid headlines picking apart her body, and she performed storylines onscreen that mirrored her real-life trauma. She suffered post-partum depression, addiction and recovery, domestic abuse, and the loss of her beloved little brother. Despite everything, Hayden managed to take these experiences, which she calls “lifequakes,” and emerge from them stronger, no longer afraid to use her voice or show her true self. She’s played the part of a misfit hero, a superstar, a survivor, a cheerleader, and an all-American fresh face. In This Is Me, Hayden stars in her most heart-wrenching and unforgettable role herself. This is her story, on her terms.
Kritters Thoughts: A book that I read back in May and unfortunately forgot to post my thoughts until now, after her passing. From my reading, Hayden Panettiere had an extreme childhood with high highs and low lows that seemed to lack a proper family support system that could have helped her navigate the business of Hollywood as a child. With a mother who wanted to pursue acting herself and from Hayden's point of view was living vicariously through her daughter which in my opinion isn't the most healthiest life. And then a father who was trying to work a regular job to keep the family afloat AND maintain a "normal" childhood for Hayden's younger brother.
What a story - a true story but still. Hayden had quite the career but behind the scenes she was battling all sorts of life's demons and its sad to know that she was on the rise but maybe not at her peak yet. I will always rewatch and her enjoy her fiesty character in Remember the Titans. I loved reading about her audition for this movie and what she learned from being on this movie set.
I really love reading these Hollywood memoirs and this one was so interesting as I wasn't completely familiar with her resume, but I was drawn to watch her work and am even more so now after her sad untimely passing.
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